I'm having trouble thinking about anything but your upcoming arrival. Will you be waiting for someone to make you come out? Or will you be kinder to your mother and come on your own? Tomorrow is your due date and it would be fantastic if you came then, or today. Today would be good.
There are so many people waiting to meet you, to hold you, to love you.
Please, just think about making your appearance soon.
No matter what happens I love you.
-mommy
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Sunday, May 22, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
The Body That Cried Wolf
That's how I'm looking at my body now. It keeps falsely crying "wolf" or in this case "baby"! I have had serious false labor for weeks now. Last night it went on for hours and felt so much different than it had before, that for awhile I thought it might actually be something...it wasn't. Just more false labor.
Yes, I understand that it is preparing my body for what is to come and that I should look at it as a good thing, but I'm finding that it just makes me anxious. Tired, cranky and anxious.
Yesterday my doula asked if I had any fear about having a VBAC and honestly I don't. I know my body can do this if it is given the chance. The only thing weighing on me is the deadline. Just over a week until my due date, then I get 7-10 more days after that before I'll be induced (something you have to be really careful about with a VBAC) or pushed into another c-section. I'm just ready for my body to get things moving so I don't have to stress about induction/c-section.
I want to give MayBaby all the time she needs, but the deadline makes me anxious.
Yes, I understand that it is preparing my body for what is to come and that I should look at it as a good thing, but I'm finding that it just makes me anxious. Tired, cranky and anxious.
Yesterday my doula asked if I had any fear about having a VBAC and honestly I don't. I know my body can do this if it is given the chance. The only thing weighing on me is the deadline. Just over a week until my due date, then I get 7-10 more days after that before I'll be induced (something you have to be really careful about with a VBAC) or pushed into another c-section. I'm just ready for my body to get things moving so I don't have to stress about induction/c-section.
I want to give MayBaby all the time she needs, but the deadline makes me anxious.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Making Peace with 40 weeks
So here's the thing - I want to be pregnant for the full 40 weeks that MayBaby deserves, but I never thought we'd really get there.
My goal was just "don't have another preemie" and we crossed that threshold last Sunday when we hit 37 weeks. YAY! But to be honest I didn't really think about the weeks after that. It didn't seem like a real option. Especially since I have had A LOT of false labor - LOTS of regular, though not very painful contractions and even a few painful but not regular contractions. I was actually a little surprised that she didn't show up the day I turned 37 weeks. For some reason I just thought we would cross that magical line and she'd show-up.
Clearly, this is not the case. I'm beginning to think that MayBaby will wait for the full 40 weeks. This is a little daunting to me, I'll be 11 weeks more pregnant than I was with Greyson, and that just seems crazy. By this point I already had Greyson home. I wouldn't trade a healthy pregnancy for anything in the World, but I'm beginning to see that it takes a really long time to properly grow a new person, and I'm getting the tiniest bit impatient.
So, I'll be 38 weeks tomorrow - only 2-3 weeks possible after that (my OB won't induce until 41 weeks which is WONDERFUL). We've muddled through this long, I can take it :)
Here's a great article on the "Every Week Counts" program: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/05/06/labor-39-weeks-baby-dangerous_n_858613.html
It makes me feel bad for ever thinking 37 weeks is "enough". If that was when she chose to arrive, it would be, but MayBaby deserves every week and every day.
My goal was just "don't have another preemie" and we crossed that threshold last Sunday when we hit 37 weeks. YAY! But to be honest I didn't really think about the weeks after that. It didn't seem like a real option. Especially since I have had A LOT of false labor - LOTS of regular, though not very painful contractions and even a few painful but not regular contractions. I was actually a little surprised that she didn't show up the day I turned 37 weeks. For some reason I just thought we would cross that magical line and she'd show-up.
Clearly, this is not the case. I'm beginning to think that MayBaby will wait for the full 40 weeks. This is a little daunting to me, I'll be 11 weeks more pregnant than I was with Greyson, and that just seems crazy. By this point I already had Greyson home. I wouldn't trade a healthy pregnancy for anything in the World, but I'm beginning to see that it takes a really long time to properly grow a new person, and I'm getting the tiniest bit impatient.
So, I'll be 38 weeks tomorrow - only 2-3 weeks possible after that (my OB won't induce until 41 weeks which is WONDERFUL). We've muddled through this long, I can take it :)
Here's a great article on the "Every Week Counts" program: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/05/06/labor-39-weeks-baby-dangerous_n_858613.html
It makes me feel bad for ever thinking 37 weeks is "enough". If that was when she chose to arrive, it would be, but MayBaby deserves every week and every day.
Friday, April 29, 2011
2 things I'm not good at and don't really like
Waiting and Surprises
Sooo, this whole waiting for baby girl to decide when she's ready to show up thing is really hard for me. It's only really hard because she keeps faking me out! I'd be happy to wait until 40 weeks, as long as it didn't seem like she could be here at any moment.
Last night I had regular contractions from 9pm until mid-night, then was awakened by them again at 3:30am. After 2 hours of walking around the house things calmed down and I went back to sleep. Today the contractions have been much stronger, but not as often. She is super-low right now too. 2 weeks ago I could only get a finger or two between her and my sternum. Now I can get both my hand there.
I have a very busy weekend ahead and it would be nice to get through it before she arrives, but there is no way of knowing!
Babies come when they are ready, I just have to learn to roll with it.
But I don't like surprises or waiting; so this waiting thing is getting hard.
Sooo, this whole waiting for baby girl to decide when she's ready to show up thing is really hard for me. It's only really hard because she keeps faking me out! I'd be happy to wait until 40 weeks, as long as it didn't seem like she could be here at any moment.
Last night I had regular contractions from 9pm until mid-night, then was awakened by them again at 3:30am. After 2 hours of walking around the house things calmed down and I went back to sleep. Today the contractions have been much stronger, but not as often. She is super-low right now too. 2 weeks ago I could only get a finger or two between her and my sternum. Now I can get both my hand there.
I have a very busy weekend ahead and it would be nice to get through it before she arrives, but there is no way of knowing!
Babies come when they are ready, I just have to learn to roll with it.
But I don't like surprises or waiting; so this waiting thing is getting hard.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Still here!
So it seems like yesterday was just a fun-filled day of Braxton-Hicks contractions. I'm totally fine with this. I just like to know what is going on. I'm pretty amazed with this whole "growing a baby" thing. That it works at all is a wonder.
Today we've got an OB appt, and I'm looking forward to seeing if yesterday helped us make any progress. Plus I love hearing her heartbeat!
UPDATE: Thanks to all the Braxton-Hicks I am 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. Not likely to have a baby this weekend, but according to my OB next weekend isn't out of the realm of possible! And that everything still looks great for a VBAC.
Today we've got an OB appt, and I'm looking forward to seeing if yesterday helped us make any progress. Plus I love hearing her heartbeat!
UPDATE: Thanks to all the Braxton-Hicks I am 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. Not likely to have a baby this weekend, but according to my OB next weekend isn't out of the realm of possible! And that everything still looks great for a VBAC.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Is this what a contraction feels like?
The problem with being a 2nd time parent, but one who has never gone into normal labor - is that you have no idea what is normal and what is labor. That's the point I'm at now. My pelvis is sore and I have a lot of low pressure and about every 10 min my abdomen gets really tight and that tightness lasts anywhere from 30 seconds to 2 min. I both want to eat and throw-up.
Frankly it's all just strange to me. I'm 7 weeks further along than I was when Greyson was born so this could totally be normal 3rd trimester stuff, but I don't know.
I called the OB's office and they said to stay put and not worry until the contractions are getting noticeably stronger and longer and consistent over an hour +, or my water breaks, or I start bleeding. So I'm just hanging out at home, trying to get things done and wondering "what the heck is going on".
But I have a strange feeling that MayBaby may not make it to May. And if she does it won't be for much of it. And I'm actually totally okay with this. Because I feel like she's in control right now, everything that happens is up to her. Unlike with G, she'll get to be in charge of when she comes. And that thought just makes me happy.
Frankly it's all just strange to me. I'm 7 weeks further along than I was when Greyson was born so this could totally be normal 3rd trimester stuff, but I don't know.
I called the OB's office and they said to stay put and not worry until the contractions are getting noticeably stronger and longer and consistent over an hour +, or my water breaks, or I start bleeding. So I'm just hanging out at home, trying to get things done and wondering "what the heck is going on".
But I have a strange feeling that MayBaby may not make it to May. And if she does it won't be for much of it. And I'm actually totally okay with this. Because I feel like she's in control right now, everything that happens is up to her. Unlike with G, she'll get to be in charge of when she comes. And that thought just makes me happy.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Belly Pics: LB#2 - Week 36
Well, if I thought she has dropped last week it is nothing compared to this week! Now I can feel her hiccups in my pelvis! It's so strange, I've been so used to her hanging out in my rib cage it feels weird to have her anywhere else. Is is wrong to say I miss the sensation of not being able to take a full breath? Cause I kind of do.
I'm both happy and sad about these changes. Happy because it means our little girl is on here way, but sad too because I really will miss being pregnant.
I've also started having regular contractions, although they are not really strong, nor painful, they are fairly regular. Mainly they happen in the evening, but for the last 2 days I've had them for a couple of hours, anywhere for 10 to 20 min apart. I think it is freaking Michael out, but I don't think it is something to worry about yet. I have an OB appointment on Thursday and I'm excited to see what she says. Is what I'm feeling normal and it means that we could still have weeks to go, or does it mean that MayBaby could arrive at any time. I just don't know! That's the problem with being a 2nd time mom who has never gone full-term. I have no clue what to expect!
I've been getting as many Greyson snuggles in as I can. I'm really thrilled that our family is growing, but I'm still feeling a little guilty that very soon he'll have to share Mommy and Daddy. I love that little kid so much!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Realizing that Little Bird #2 will be here soon! (and a game!)
How soon I don't know, but there are less than 30 days before her estimated due date (May 23rd)! I have a feeling I'll have her before then. She's moved much lower and everything just feels different. Noticeably different even from yesterday. This is just a whole new experience for me - it's like being a first-time mom. I'm still not too achy or uncomfortable, but I feel...different.
Now here's the game:
In the comments section list the following:Whom ever is the closest will win some kind of amazing prize...I just don't know what yet. But don't let that unknown factor stop you. Make your guess!
- Date you think she'll be born
- Weight and Length
- Bonus: MayBaby's Name
(Check the comments section for my guess!!)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
The Cough, The Sinus Infection and The Flu
The Cough: Greyson has had a cough for over a week now. We've been to the pediatrician's office and was told he has a cough. Thanks, that was totally worth my co-pay. We can't really do anything for it. I've been giving him spoonfuls of honey and having him drink so tea, but I don't think it has really helped. He's a kid with a cough, I'm hoping it is gone by the weekend.
The Sinus Infection: I have yet another awesome sinus infection. YAY! It's currently moved from just my head into my lungs. Well, upper respiratory is more what it is. Either way in addition to blowing my nose all the time I too have a delightful cough. Luckily I had ab OB appointment this week and they kindly wrote a prescription for the z-pack, my sinus infection killing drug of choice. I'm on day 2 and hopefully by the weekend I'll e much better too!
Also at the OB's appointment they determined that I was borderline anemic. I'm not suprised, I think that I always am, despite my high meat and spinach diet. At my next visit (in 2 weeks) they will check it again and possibly put me on iron. I'm sure being even slightly anemic isn't helping me stave off any illness.
The Flu: Michael contracted the flu this weekend. Not just a bad cold, but the honest to goodness flu. Influenza Type A to be exact. It hit on Saturday night, but Sunday evening he was a mess and by Monday we were getting him to a doctor. I've never seen him so sick. That night Greyson and I packed up and headed to Michael's parent's house to stay while Michael was still contegeous. Even though both Greyson and I got flu shots this year it still seemed safest to get away, especially since we were both sick already. Really, it wasn't so much about getting away (although that was part of it) as much as it was about leaving Michael to recover without the screams and squeals of a toddler waking him all the time. It was a good choice.
While Michael isn't 100% yet, or even 80% better he is still better and we are all back home tonight. Also, after this experience I think we are flu shot converts. This was the first year I had gotten one in at least the past 5 years, and I didn't have Greyson vaccinated for it last year. This year I just thought it was something we should do and I'm so glad we did. Michael will be getting his next year too. The flu is no fun at all.
So there you have it; The Cough, The Sinus Infection and The Flu. Three people, 3 different maladies - all under one roof at one time. I don't suggest it.
The Sinus Infection: I have yet another awesome sinus infection. YAY! It's currently moved from just my head into my lungs. Well, upper respiratory is more what it is. Either way in addition to blowing my nose all the time I too have a delightful cough. Luckily I had ab OB appointment this week and they kindly wrote a prescription for the z-pack, my sinus infection killing drug of choice. I'm on day 2 and hopefully by the weekend I'll e much better too!
Also at the OB's appointment they determined that I was borderline anemic. I'm not suprised, I think that I always am, despite my high meat and spinach diet. At my next visit (in 2 weeks) they will check it again and possibly put me on iron. I'm sure being even slightly anemic isn't helping me stave off any illness.
The Flu: Michael contracted the flu this weekend. Not just a bad cold, but the honest to goodness flu. Influenza Type A to be exact. It hit on Saturday night, but Sunday evening he was a mess and by Monday we were getting him to a doctor. I've never seen him so sick. That night Greyson and I packed up and headed to Michael's parent's house to stay while Michael was still contegeous. Even though both Greyson and I got flu shots this year it still seemed safest to get away, especially since we were both sick already. Really, it wasn't so much about getting away (although that was part of it) as much as it was about leaving Michael to recover without the screams and squeals of a toddler waking him all the time. It was a good choice.
While Michael isn't 100% yet, or even 80% better he is still better and we are all back home tonight. Also, after this experience I think we are flu shot converts. This was the first year I had gotten one in at least the past 5 years, and I didn't have Greyson vaccinated for it last year. This year I just thought it was something we should do and I'm so glad we did. Michael will be getting his next year too. The flu is no fun at all.
So there you have it; The Cough, The Sinus Infection and The Flu. Three people, 3 different maladies - all under one roof at one time. I don't suggest it.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Time to make room in the nest for PINK*!
The big ultrasound was today and we found out that we are having a little GIRL!
I'm still trying to process this information. I know what to do with boys and now I have to figure out girls! We are excited to see what she will bring to our family. Now we'll have even teams!
But I'm saying this now - she can NOT have my Samantha doll! I'll just have to get her one of her own once she's old enough!
The best news (in my opinion) is that my placenta is "as far away from the cervix as it can get". I'm breathing a HUGE sigh of relief over this one. All the issues we had with Greyson were because my placenta was too low. This one is very high, as high as it can get in fact. Safely away from both my cervix and my c-section scar line. Because of this my OB is even more confident that I'll be able to have my VBAC!! Hooray!
Additionally everything looks "perfect" (OB's words not mine!!). Brain, heart, stomach, kidneys (after working for 5 years for a kidney foundation I always ask that the ultrasound tech make sure they aren't echogenic) and umbilical vessels all look great!
Little Bird #2 was moving and flipping all around, for awhile she even had her feet over her head! It was so cool watching her wiggle. The funny thing is she has a lowish heart-rate (140's to low 150's) even while dancing all around. So much for girls having a higher heart-rate. I think this is just the way my kids are. Greyson's heart-rate was almost always in the 140's and we all know he was never still.
It was a really great visit and such a relief to know that everything is okay. Coming from where I do, I've been waiting for this appointment to relax and fall in love with this pregnancy. Gender really was an afterthought for us. Knowing that she's healthy is what matters! Now to keep her put for the next 20 weeks!!
(Photos to come after Greyson goes to bed and I figure out the scanner!)
*Not too much pink. I need to work on finding non over the top pink/purple girl things.
I'm still trying to process this information. I know what to do with boys and now I have to figure out girls! We are excited to see what she will bring to our family. Now we'll have even teams!
But I'm saying this now - she can NOT have my Samantha doll! I'll just have to get her one of her own once she's old enough!
The best news (in my opinion) is that my placenta is "as far away from the cervix as it can get". I'm breathing a HUGE sigh of relief over this one. All the issues we had with Greyson were because my placenta was too low. This one is very high, as high as it can get in fact. Safely away from both my cervix and my c-section scar line. Because of this my OB is even more confident that I'll be able to have my VBAC!! Hooray!
Additionally everything looks "perfect" (OB's words not mine!!). Brain, heart, stomach, kidneys (after working for 5 years for a kidney foundation I always ask that the ultrasound tech make sure they aren't echogenic) and umbilical vessels all look great!
Little Bird #2 was moving and flipping all around, for awhile she even had her feet over her head! It was so cool watching her wiggle. The funny thing is she has a lowish heart-rate (140's to low 150's) even while dancing all around. So much for girls having a higher heart-rate. I think this is just the way my kids are. Greyson's heart-rate was almost always in the 140's and we all know he was never still.
It was a really great visit and such a relief to know that everything is okay. Coming from where I do, I've been waiting for this appointment to relax and fall in love with this pregnancy. Gender really was an afterthought for us. Knowing that she's healthy is what matters! Now to keep her put for the next 20 weeks!!
(Photos to come after Greyson goes to bed and I figure out the scanner!)
*Not too much pink. I need to work on finding non over the top pink/purple girl things.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
LB#2 - First Kicks!
Well it is official the kicks have begun! I'm 18 weeks and already this little bird is practicing her flips and kicks. I have very acrobatic children in the womb. Greyson was a crazy kicker (although I didn't feel him until 20 weeks) and it seems his little sibling is following in hes footsteps.
It is such a strange feeling, this little flick below my belly button. It is a nice little reminder that I am growing another person. That no matter how sick (and woosh I've been sick these past 2 weeks) and no matter how busy I get with Greyson, that I'm also busy making a new life. That come the spring our family will be complete.
Oh Little Bird #2 thanks for your little kicks. Momma loves them. Feeling you now is a wonderful early Christmas gift!
It is such a strange feeling, this little flick below my belly button. It is a nice little reminder that I am growing another person. That no matter how sick (and woosh I've been sick these past 2 weeks) and no matter how busy I get with Greyson, that I'm also busy making a new life. That come the spring our family will be complete.
Oh Little Bird #2 thanks for your little kicks. Momma loves them. Feeling you now is a wonderful early Christmas gift!
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
The return of the two pink lines
All last week I waited for my period to start. Everything was telling me that it would be here any day, except for the fact that it didn't come. Then it didn't come some more. So on Monday I took a test and much to my surprise it was positive. Big, bold, right away positive. I was shocked and delighted. By Wednesday there wasn't any doubt in my head because I was starting to feel queasy all the time and waking up early for good reason. Friday I had a dr's visit and they said "Pregnant!" I'm waiting to hear what my HCG level is. Last time it was never higher than 156, so I'm hoping for a really high number this time. Come on 1000!
Crazy.
Exciting.
Wonderful.
Were are looking at the 1st or 2nd week of February, depending on whose "due date estimator" we use. Grandpa's birthday is the 6th of February so I've been told to aim for that day - and to have twin boys. I'll see what I can do. But no matter who we meet in February - Finnigan, Sullivan or Eleanore, we will be so happy to see them. Our family is just waiting for you.
Oh - this means I will be HUGE for Christmas. Wont' that be fun.
UPDATE: My HCG was 3600! So awesome.
Crazy.
Exciting.
Wonderful.
Were are looking at the 1st or 2nd week of February, depending on whose "due date estimator" we use. Grandpa's birthday is the 6th of February so I've been told to aim for that day - and to have twin boys. I'll see what I can do. But no matter who we meet in February - Finnigan, Sullivan or Eleanore, we will be so happy to see them. Our family is just waiting for you.
Oh - this means I will be HUGE for Christmas. Wont' that be fun.
UPDATE: My HCG was 3600! So awesome.
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