After writing, sobbing uncontrollably, talking to friends, reading comments and going back to the acupuncturist I feel better. Much better.
If MayBaby comes before induction day, great. If not, I've done all I can do. Her birth will NOT be like Greyson's. I have choices, options and I can be in some control. It's like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Thank you to everyone who helped me through this day. It is so wonderful to have such great friends. Thank you.
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Majorly big hugs! I think is okay to be emotional and retrospective (especially after a day full of tornado sirens).
A couple of things you wrote hit home (and I cried a few tears too) but you've given this little girl the best thing you could have given her - cooking time! And 20- 25 years from how when its her turn, you can tell her how hard you fought for both her and Greyson and that she can still do anything she wants.
No matter how that birth goes, having her in your arms will wash all of it away. Going home and having both of your kids in your arms will make you whole.
I too fret over whether or not I will have enough attention and love for both kids. They keep telling me I will, and that it will come so easy. I think they are right.
i can't wait to see the glow of love and hope and peace when you have both of those kiddos with you.
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